My First Born Child

My first born child, my joy, my love
Given to me from the heavens above.
Why me, I thought, did God choose to so bless,
The answer to this, my mind could only guess.
The unconditional bond of love I instantly felt,
The face of an angel that made my heart melt.

Watching you grow over the years,
Never knowing my happiness would lead to so many tears.
I thought you would be mine to have all the days of my life,
You not being here cuts through my heart like the pain of a knife.

My heart cried out to God "How could you let this happen,
Why did you let him fall asleep,"
My child, he said, was only on loan, and not mine to keep.
"But why after only 30 years did he have to take his last breath?
You could have sent an angel to spare him from this death".

He said the answers you seek are all within your reach,
I sent him to show you how to love, and also to teach.
His mission was accomplished, his work on earth was done,
Take joy and comfort in knowing that you taught him about my son.

For now he has eternity with Jesus in the place of your dreams,
He isn't truly gone from you, that's only how it seems.
He is never far from you, you are never really apart,
When you feel he is not with you, just look inside your heart.

For there is where the memories and love are stored
until for you I send,
You see, you also believe in my son,
so, likewise, for you there will be no end.
For in my word I've promised you will be
together again one day, It's only love you will keep,
all the pain and tears I will wipe away.

Adapted in child's age and gender from
Original Poem by Pam Lager

See Original Poem HERE